This is not debatable. I cannot, I WILL not fall for you.

And yet. You’re quickly becoming vastly important to me.

It’s offensive. I’m drunk and upset that I didn’t see you today. That’s how bad it is. When I’m not around you, I feel like my day is incomplete. I should NOT feel that way. I want you around constantly. I know that in the end, I’ll do better, but right now, you’re exactly who and what I want. You’re going to teach me things no one else can teach me. I’ll always remember you, but I know what your place in my life is. At least I have that. So please make this situation easy for me. Right now, you’re making it difficult. I don’t want to deal with the emotional baggage when this is over. I’ll have to deal alone. No one understands what we have, and I don’t even want to understand myself……..Fuck.